“Reflecting upon my recent heart medicine journey with Josie and Brian at Vikara Retreat Center, I can wholeheartedly say that there was life before the journey, and life after.
Never in my wildest dreams could I have ever imagined the foundational shifts I would experience in my mind, body and spirit. Prior to the journey, I deeply struggled with chronic tension and severe body pain, debilitating headaches, and an overall battle with my own inner dialogue. No matter what modality I tried, I simply never seemed to be able to create a peace treaty between my inner thoughts and the way my body responded.
I came to Vikara as I was ready to open up to a new way of meeting myself – without fear, judgment, trauma, pain and inner criticism. Before the journey, I was told that heart medicine is often referred to as “safety camp”, a moment in time where you get to set it all down and simply see yourself through the lens of love. Within an hour of the journey, I felt decades of protective layers slowly melt away in my muscles, bit by bit, layer by layer. My body released, unraveled, and tenderly softened the entire shield I had so fiercely created since childhood to protect myself from a learned survival.
Without the fear, I was able to set down the armor and see myself for what I truly am: safe, loved, and an absolute legend! I can honestly say, I have never had such a kind, compassionate, caring and loving conversation with myself. I felt as if I could literally see just how big my heart really is and how courageous I had been all these years. Every ounce of physical pain resolved and I experienced a way of life I had never known. A life where I could simply be, and not battle. The experience planted a seed for me, a hope of a new way of walking through the world.
Over the past few weeks of integration, I have continued to hear the loving voice I met that day. She continues to speak to me in calmness when I feel my stress levels rise, or my body tighten. I am even more aware of my body pain patterns and the trauma they are linked to. However, I now feel I have more resolve and agency over the levels they begin to creep. I can notice sooner, slow down sooner, and simply breathe. And, I have yet to have a tension headache ever since! I feel more creative, hopeful and grounded. My depression and anxiety have now shifted into a compassionate conversation that has more balance and less power over me.
Vikara is a sacred space for healing. Josie and Brian truly are earth angels. They offer the most nourishing, loving, sweetest space that is held and guided throughout the entire journey. Starting from helping define clear intentions prior to the journey, to the journey itself, and the integration afterwards. I felt completely cared for and loved, seen and celebrated.
Lastly, being able to close out the journey and walk outside, under a sky full of stars, to connect with horses, owls, donkeys, goats, llamas, pigs and more, brought a connected layer to this experience that felt so incredibly special.
If you are feeling stuck, in your body, mind, or spirit, please gift yourself a weekend of a heart medicine journey. It has transformed my life – as its namesake “Vikara” so perfectly captures.”
- J